Day 20

A difficult time in my life.

After having Callan, Luke wanted another child. In honesty, I did too. However, I did not wish to be pregnant again. When Callan was about a year and a half old we began discussing if/when we would like to try for our second child. One night I was thinking of how terrible it was to be pregnant during the summer. I decided then an there that I didn't want to do that again. After looking more closely at the dates, Luke and I decided quickly that we would try quickly and if it didn't happen we would wait a year before trying again. Long introduction resulted in me being pregnant with Dezmond the winter of 2015-2016. During the first trimester I was more sick then I remember being with Callan. This is common and I survived it happily with the continuous reminder that it would be my last pregnancy. I also tried my best to enjoy my time with Callan as there was soon to be another child claiming a lot of my attention. Into my second trimester I started getting tested repeatedly for preeclampsia. Thankfully, it was not that, not again after Callan. O do wish that they could have found something. I felt as though I started a steady headache that got worse and never went away. It got worse and worse. We went to the emergency room many times for it as well. They would check my liver enzymes, give me morphine, and send me home. No one could find what was happening. I found myself either sleeping or crying. It was a very terrible two and a half months. I feel that it was especially terrible for Luke, Callan, and my mom.